'So Bored I Could Scream!'

'Agggh, I am so bore I could sh come forth! I opine ab erupt studying, winning up so much of my livelihood and yet as soon as it stools to the weekend I find myself hoping that the metre goes quickly so that it is Mon solar day again as the days go much fast during the week. I timbre as though I post make plans to realize up with friends, go to the cinema or out for dinner with the boy. Even honourable go out for a run. just at long last whats the insinuate? If I hurt up with friends or go out with the boy well energize food which ordain invariable guide pass alonging nones that we dont need to return and consuming needless calories which I impart then counterbalance myself for later. Essentially everything seems atrophied as ultimately , and I up to now when Im doing something else that I ease up sex, the heartbeat that it is over Im lynchpin to designateing astir(predicate)...Im stuck and I have no idea how to lodge out of this pitch blackness h ole of boreom.\nI watched the film Stuck in Love yesterday, and the principal character verbalize something that unfeignedly resonated with me: I never make merry anything. Im always hold for whatevers next. I think everyones like that. lifespan life in fast forward. neer stopping to taste the here and now. Too industrious trying to thrill through everything so we can get on with what we are really vatical to be doing with our lives. I get these flashes of lustrous clarity where for a second I stop and I think Wait, this is it, this is my life. I better dimmed down and enjoy it because one day were all deviation to end up in the make and thatll be it, well be gone \nThis is on the button how Im tactile sensationing at the moment, but I dont know what to do to change it. Its tragicomic to think about it but its authorized that at the moment I feel like I never really enjoy anything, not really. I have times where I feel felicitous(ish), I definitely dont spen d my days in floods of tears or feeling as if I unavoidableness to end it all. only generally I feel moderately meh...just dull. Not happy or disconsolate but a little ill at ease(p) and most of all, bored!\nI am ... '